Feeling off is welcome here

I felt “off” the other day. It happens. It wasn’t due to the state of the world, hormones, or anything I ate. Just an “ugh” in me that didn’t seem to have an explanation or origin.

I did not do any methods to “change my state.” I did not go for a walk or listen to fave tunes or conjure a list of gratitudes. Those are all great and I have a wonderful overflowing toolbox of things to do to raise my vibration.

This was simply needing to be. And to be ALLOWED.

What if our feelings, not just the ones we label “good,” could ALL be treated as welcomed visitors?

Feelings are indeed just passing through, so instead of trying to slam the door in their face (too late, already in), we do not banish to the dungeon (Hello, Stuck Emotions!) and just be with them.

Just be with them. Let them pass on through. I laid on my bed and just breathed with them. I tried to name them.

Sadness, you are allowed in my body. Breathe. Confusion, you are allowed in my body. Breathe. Tangled-up-ness, you are allowed in my body.

Breathing and listening, more came up to be seen. Fear of Disappointing People, you are allowed in my body. Grief, you are allowed in my body. Wavering Waves of unnamed emotions, you are allowed in my body.

Just allowing them softened everything. This is not inviting them to move in and stay. This is about honoring the VISITORS. Having a tea chat, not an analysis or interrogation. A simple hello, I see you.

Using words like “you are allowed in my body” removes guilt and shame. Having a feeling and feeling bad about having that feeling does not help the situation.

Recognizing that feelings come and go, and that this too shall pass, frees them instead of repressing them.

Sometimes it suffices to simply say: Feeling Off, you are allowed in my body. We all have off days or parts of days. Let it be.

If Feeling Off wants to get more specific, let it. That’s why you sit with it for a moment. I was not aware my old bugaboo of not wanting to ever disappoint was wrapped up in my offness. That remnant was needing to be seen, coming up so it can come out.

I acknowledged it and it dissipated with the gentle reminder that anyone’s responses to me are out of my control. All I can do is speak/live my life in my integrity and with kindness. If someone is disappointed, then so it is. It is never my intention to let anyone down and yet I cannot couch my words, actions, inactions in fear of some imagined response. I am getting stronger in honoring me. Maybe this offness was to get me back in alignment.

Is Fear of Disappointing People gone for good? I would bet there are still old strands of it buried in me and I will bet that it will come up to the surface more and more, ready to dissolve in the light of acceptance.

Feeling off is not a bad thing. It’s normal. We don’t shun, ignore, override. We allow the visitor to be seen, heard, felt. And then the hold is released. The heaviness lifts.

And a new day dawns, an open door for all that is here to be felt.

Thanks for listening.

And that’s what my “off” feelings told me too before they evaporated into the ethers.

In Service to Spirit.

Much love.

xxKelly